Just Me

I think I'm giving up with this bloggy malarky, I think sticking with just commenting on other peoples blogs is better for me lol

Or so it would seem according to my doctor.

I'm going to write this anyway as I feel it may make me feel better even though I know noone ever come here anymore.

Things have not been too good for me lately, I've been told that there is a high chance that I will be made redundant from my job even though they are taking their time in deciding who goes and who stays. All I know is I'm safe for another month until the next big partners meeting on 24th April. The thought of being unemployed terrifies me I've worked solidly since the week before my 16th birthday and only really missed work with sickness. I've been applying for jobs left right and centre but nothing has came up and saved me yet. If I lose my job I stand to lose everything if I dont get another one straight away.

My friends lately have left me feeling emotional and distant. I feel at the moment no one ever bothers with me, the only time I ever see any of them is if I do all the leg work... are they really true friends if they cant be bothered to pick up the phone and ask me if I wanna go for tea or a drink or whatever... Maybe its my fault, I got married- when we were saving for the wedding money was tight so we couldnt afford to go all over but we were always there for special occassions be it birthdays, engagements or just "because they needed me". Maybe I'm being punished for growing up- there were 2 parties thrown this weekend and out of 2 I got invited to 0... that never used to happen, I always used to be on the top of someones guest list somewhere.... :(

We also found out this weekend that our car may cost up too £800 to fix... we still owe Michael's mam £900 from the loan she gave us for the car.

Im on yet more medication to try and control my monthly cycle considering I've not stopped bleeding since November and guess what they're not working....!! I'm tired and constantly feeling lousy and I put it all down to this. I spoke with my doctor about it and they basically told me that if I lost weight I'd fix all of my problems, but there was nothing to do to help me and considering I have PCOS I'd find it difficult but I'll just have to deal with it.

Anyway, I realised that whilst all this was going on around me and the worry and stress of work and friends and family that I was slipping. I cant remember the time I properly laughed or even smiled. I cry plenty, I dont sleep often and well my appetite is patchy as well. I tried to talk to my Doctor about maybe being depressed and basically he told me that it was all in my head and that a bit of Positive Mental Attitude was all I needed.

However, after reading some of the recent blogs on here I guess my problems really do seem juvenile....

Heres to hoping it gets better :( xxx

Unlucky for you no I've not! I've been really bad with cold (go on moan and groan) so I've not been near my puter! I even missed a trip to the mother in laws which always guarantees a free bottle of decent wine! Its the hubby's birthday soon, and I'm well in the stages of planning Im hoping its going to be good.

We've decided to call it day on the "trying to buy a house" deali-o and instead I'm going to decorate the house we're in at the moment! *sigh* At least it will be a little closer to being mine :D

How are all of you??

Marvellous Muddy Mondays :D
xxxx

Today has me narked already (not that I wanna sound like a moan or anything)! So me and the Hubsand are trying to buy a house! We're First Time Buyers without a deposit so we knew we were gonna have issues however, when the Government announced it was going to do this that and t'other to help people like moi I got quite chuffed! Off we went in our little car up too see some pretty new builds in an area near my mother! Everything was fab discussed figures, the Government Scheme and what the Builders can do to help! We picked a pretty little 3 bed semi with a garage across the way and left feeling positive!

Pfft! That was short bloody lived. As we do not have a child we are not eligable for a 3 bedroom house..... don't these people know how much crap I have, not only that, they sold the plot we were after...

What narks me is the fact that I'm being discriminated against because I don't have a child or 8. Since when has it been a requirement to purchase a house you have to a harem of small ones! Society on a whole puts way too much pressure on people to have kids these days, housing being the main issue for me... Get pregnant get given a Council house, get pregnant again get a bigger council house! I've been on the Council housing list since I was 16 years old, im 23 now and I still face another 5 years before I'll be considered... it didnt matter that at the time my mother had kicked me on to the street... I didnt have a sprog I wasnt an emergency!

Back to the drawing board for me I think!

On a happier note I settle and Insurance Claim today for myself means I can have a holiday now! Well almost it was only £1200.00 after all!

Blackpool anyone?

xxx

So yesterday was my mothers birthday and as is the usual we all got dressed up and hit our local boozer. Everything was going superb until a drunk/drugged chav jumped in on our conversation. Fireworks preceeded!

He called my mum a c*nt, squared up to her which is one thing you dont do... then squared up to me which is one thing you DEFINITELY DO NOT DO! The whole pub went up in a rather large bang!!

Hehehehehe!

I will be back later as right now I have to get back to my game *slightly addicted me thinks*

xxx

Phew.... I'm here again... I miss this place a little I guess, I used to love reporting about the mad nights out me and Daf used to have and putting up random pics.

Alot has changed in my life and in blog land from the looks of things. Where are all my old faithfuls?

So do you wanna know whats gone on? Well do ya...?

Its a bit naff if you don't cos I'm gonna tell you anyway.

Last year was a year of change for me. Including moving house, dealing with a death in my husbands family (yes I said husband), growing up, getting 2 cats, quitting smoking indefinately and clearing out the bad people that were involved in my life two of which were meant to be really good friends. Oh and not to forget getting married. It was a time for forgiveness and to forget as well.

God, I'm out of practise at all of this palava....

My wedding was the most perfect day of my life, apart from minor hiccups like ripping the bridesmaids dress 30mins before leaving the house, not having my shoes until the day before the wedding, or having any hair or nails booked until 2 days before the wedding. I take the blame for all of it apart from the hair thing... my ex best friend, my supposed maid of honour left me in the lurch when she ditched me... (less said about her the better).

The morning was hectic, we nearly didnt make it on time, the hair dressers took a hell of a lot longer than anticipated to do my hair, and 2 others hairs, my stand in MoH was late due to an accident at the petrol station and my dad had been given the wrong trousers in his suit.

Anyway.... a car journey later, some anxious hopping on the spot, an extremely nervous dad and bride made it down the aisle. Vows were said and may I add.... they were our own, rings exchanged, many millions of photos later, the party began.

I could talk about the wedding all day long but it would bore you to tears so just before I go, I'll leave you with these pictures :D

HEEELLLLOOOO!!

Well this is old hat now isnt it.... where is everyone? xxx

its Friday and its well.... PISSING IT DOWN!!

I am at work, with absolutely no work to do. I can't go home cos I'm the only one in the department bit of a nightmare really.

Been on a bit of a guilt trip over the last few days, there was a girl who was hired in my department, I didnt like her and I thought she was unnecessary, but they have laid her off anyway. I felt a little bit bad about it as they've messed her around and well no one should be messed around.

Caught up this week with a mate, had a few drinks and a laugh! Have to to it more often though!

Off oot on the tiles tonight! Painting the town red or so they say! Hopefully it will be a laugh who knows!

Why is mothers day so early this year?

Oh and its the anniversary of me and Michael moving into our flat together! YAY!!

xxxx

Wow its dusty in here.....

Been a long time since I've been here. So much has changed! Where are all my friends? "Come out come out wherever you are...please.."

So whats new (it might be easier to bullit point this lol) Here goes:-

1. I've moved out of my parents and I am now living in South Shields with Michael....
2. Michael is well he is just perfect. I love him to pieces, although reading back over previous blogs I've had a few guys, however this one is for keeps.
3. Im still in the same job! There is a first for everything I suppose
4. I have my nose pierced and longer hair than ever before
5. I have many new friends
6. I've made up with my mam and we can now stand to be in the same room as each other for longer than 2 minutes
7. I turned 21 and can barely remember it (thats how its meant to be yeah)
8. I've gotten over all of my regrets.
9. I've bought a new dress... first for everything
10. The reason for the dress is I am getting married in November this year to Michael

So not alot really, but some life changing decisions!

I am aiming to try and keep this alive more often!

I miss most of you guys!

Hit me back!

Love Emma xxxx

• Beer contains phytochemicals that have been shown to help prevent heart disease.
• Bananas can also be useful hangover cures after a night on the town!
• During the female orgasm, endorphines are released, which are powerful painkillers. So headaches are in fact a bad excuse not to have sex
• Sex burns about 70-120 calories for a 130 pound woman, and 77 to 155 calories for a 170 pound man every hour.
• There are approximately 100 million acts of sexual intercourse each day.
• The condom made originally of linen was invented in the early 1500's. Casanova, the womanizer, used linen condoms.
• Being unmarried can shorten a man's life by ten years.

so there it is men.... marraige gives ya 10 yrs!

this tickled my fancy no end- searched weird town names in google got this one:-

Bell End near Lickey End (Wales, UK) *

 

Simple things and all that....

Well tonight has been none productive ive arsed around for 4 hours whoo go me.

 

and on that note im gonna go take a shower

 

bye xxx